Emoting

lost_without_me @ 2008-02-02T19:02:00

2008-02-03T00:03:46Z

This is the ONLY ONLY ONLY ONLY reason I watch Make Me a Supermodel.

Ack Ben and Ronnie bromance.... excuse me while I melt into a puddle of hormonal goo.....

lost_without_me @ 2007-12-12T18:58:00

2007-12-13T00:13:02Z

hahahhaa, this is such a cool idea/I'm not studying for history
1.Go to Google Images
2. Search for your answer
3. Pick one image from the first page
4. Post

Type your cut contents here.
My next age

(17, COOKIE COOKIE COOKIE)

Place I want to visit

(India)

Favorite place

(my bed)

Favorite object

(the internet)

Favorite food

(STEAKKKKKK)

Favorite animal

(hedgehog)

Favorite color

(Robin's egg blue)

Town I was born in

(Ann Arbor, Michigan)

Place I live now

(Potomac, Maryland)

Name of a past/present pet

(Ivy)

Name of a past/present love

(Garrett, MY FIRST LOVE... at age 2)

Screenname
Your search - lilcrabbypie103 - did not match any documents.
(that's depressing)

First name

(ARGH WHY!!!!)

Middle name

(not applicable)

Worst habit

(Obsessing)

Wasn't it sort of funny/horrible when...

2007-11-21T15:19:15Z

Reverend Stribling made that long and drawn out comment about how we should all appreciate the elders in our family because they will soon leave this Earth... on Grandparents day?

SCHEDULE AND BEGGING FOR BOOKS

2007-08-15T22:15:25Z

1. AP Calculus BC - Howie (sob)
2. Chorale - Hutto
3. RINAP - Stribling (who???)
4. US History- DiQuinzio (score)
5. Am Lit- Schramm (blah STA boys...)
6. French 3 Modern- Bouvier (EASY A EASY A EASY A)
7. Lunch

how HORRIBLE is that? every class i have is in a different building than the class preceding it and coming after it!!!! at least the evil crossing guard was fired. blah, small mercies...

also i will STARVE during junior year, but at least i have one free period every day (the majority of them coming BEFORE fourth period... but whatevs)...

part deux:

I NEED TEXTBOOKS!!! It's time i started benefitting from being friends with people one grade above me!

Ok, so obviously no one can help me with Calculus textbooks, but what about the rest?

I need the following:

RINAP (aherm LAURA AND ALISON):
Living Religions- With CD-Package and eChapter (OMG THIS IS $149.00 LIKE WTF)
Chosen
Dynamics of Faith
Siddharta: A New Translation
Equus

US History:
Give Me Liberty, Volume 1
Give Me Liberty, Volume 2
Give Me Liberty, Seagull Edition- Single Volume
Documentary History of the United States, Seventh Revised Edition
Manual for Writers of Research Papers, Theses, and Dissertations

French 3 Modern (AHERM LEE AND TIFFANY AND LAURA):
French Three Years Workbook
Le Petit Prince
Suivez La Piste
Personnages / With 2 CD's

AM Lit (AHERM EVERYBODY):
Norton Anthology of American Literature, Shorter Edition
Great Gatsby : Based on the Cambridge Critical Text (Bruccoli)
Adventures of Huckleberry Finn : A Norton Critical Edition
Scarlet Letter and Other Writing

OK, so copying and pasting all those images and titles took A LOT OF TIME AND EFFORT (although it was an amazing way to procrastinate...) SO PLEASE BOOKS!!! They're so expensive and really all i need are the textbooks, since i understand that some of you will actually read the Great Gatsby or Le Petit Prince again. I especially need US History textbooks because they're the most expensive. PLEASE HELP YOUR ALMOST JUNIOR FRIEND!!!

Peace!

Figure this one out for yourselves

2007-06-15T00:37:49Z

Running is like anal sex.

Harry Pooooootttteeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrr

2007-06-08T03:04:01Z

THEY'RE MAKING A HARRY POTTER THEME PARK IN ORLANDO, FD

it's debuting in like 2009 (the year I graduate, yeah-yah!!!)

Can't... BREATHE

2007-02-04T02:26:38Z

can't breathe... so... GORGEOUS.

JUST LOOK AT HIM!

lost_without_me @ 2007-01-18T03:28:00

2007-01-18T03:28:49Z

List ten things you want to say to people but know you never will.
- Don't say who they are.
- Disable comments.
- Never discuss it again.

1. Really vague, but fairly angry and bitter phrase.
2. Express regret, blame self, wish things had turned out better.
3. Something that refers to a childhood friend. Maybe regret, OR possibly slight idolization.
4. Short, angry, and ever so slightly bitchy comment
5. Long paragraph about something that happened in the past
6. More vague-ness, with just a tinge of regret.
7. Criticism about someones personality OR praise and a wish to become that person
8. Transparent comment, we all know who you're talking about. Kind of wish it'd been more vague.
9. Apology to... someone... somewhere.
10. A nice, most likely long one, usually with praise and hope and wishing and all that good stuff to try and make everyone else forget 1-9. Doesn't succeed in erasing what's already been typed. You've already unleashed a monster that will slowly devour everyone's sense of security. Nicely done. Snaps for you.

Have I pretty much summed it up?

I don't snort crack, my other personality does

2006-12-04T01:31:57Z

So I was getting ready to take a shower and happened to take a look in the mirror and was shocked to see a white blotch on my nose.

Dear god, I thought, this explains everything. Waking up every night, sprawled on the floor of Office Depot, hands sticky and stuck together, no memory of what happened... or what my phone number was. My second personality was a full-blown glue addict.

Then I realized it was just the marshmallow from the hot chocolate that I'd been drinking 10 minutes ago.

Now there's absolutely no explanation for the closetful of empty Elmer's glue bottles in my room.

SWARTHZEADFAFNEGER

2006-11-26T22:23:27Z

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

Just saw Ahnold Swagadfafadfneger!!!! And by "just" I mean 6 hours ago.... but whatever.

My mom and I were driving to Cactus and we were winding through the road that leads into River Road and we see this man walking towards us in a blue bath robe, with no shoes, socks... or pants. Of course we're laughing at him... until we drive closer and see that IT'S THE FREAKING TERMINATOR!!!!

And he WAVED to me! AND HE WAS SMOKING A CIGAR!!!

AND HE HAD NO PANTS!!!

~commences freaking out~

lost_without_me @ 2006-11-02T00:30:00

2006-11-02T00:30:40Z

Molly (CHECK, like two months ago)

So much for that goal.

WOOT

2006-09-28T00:21:00Z

BREAKING NEWS!!!!

I have a new goal. No, you didn't hear wrong. I have one, and I intend to REACH IT! RAWR!

What can this fantastic new goal possibly be? Well I'll tell you.

My new goal for the year 2006-2007 is to ride in every senior (that I know)'s car at least once.

It's daring, it's shocking, it's as close to impossible as possible can possibly GET!

It's like climbing Mt. Everest, but oh so much cooler.

List of Senior Girls:
Yoriko
Susan
Nini
Gill (CHECK)
Emily (CHECK)
Molly
Caroline (CHECK)

List of Senior Boys:
Lenny (CHECK)
Greg
Austin
Mike W.
Mark (oh shit)
Matt (OH shit)
Neil (OH SHIT)

What if I just ride in the same seniors car 10 times... that should count...

Conforming is for COMMUNISTS

2006-09-12T01:41:02Z

1. Elaborate on your default icon.
Because Herpes is actually very cute. I think I will name my dog Herpes... or my seamonkey

2. What's your current relationship status?
does hot steamy sex on top of a piano two times a day count?

3. Ever have a near-death experience?
five times a day in a half-hour time slot. who watches out for cars when they're running anyways?

4. Name an obvious quality you have.
um, I'm asian. need I say more?

5. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
That hymn we sang in chapel. Ma...a...a..AAAA...a..a....a...a...rvelous

6. Name a celebrity you would marry:
Jude Law pre-cheating on nanny, and Colin Firth. Imagine those English accents screaming your name during sex. rowr

7. Who will cut and paste this first?
no one, because they'll never top this one

8. Has anyone ever said you look like a celebrity?
like anyone actually knows any asian celebrities besides Lucy Liu

9. Do you wear a watch? What kind?
this expedition watch that I found on the ground...

10. Do you have anything pierced?
ears. and maybe tongue, just to see if I could still eat with it in.

11. Do you like pain?
i like causing pain.

12. Do you like to shop?
only after a traumatic incident. it's called retail therapy

13. What was the last thing you paid for with cash?
peanutbutter and cheese crackers out of the NCS vending machine. it was either that or snackwells, which, contrary to popular belief, do not snack well... if that makes any sense

14. What was the last thing you paid for with your credit card?
too paranoid for credit cards

15. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone?
Kathryn... she wanted to know the pages for math homework. why is it that the only time someone calls, it's becuase they want something from me? Take take take, that's all you people ever do!

16. What is on your desktop background?
the pearl's before swine comic (tiled, not stretched) that I posted in my last entry

17. What is the background on your cell phone?
sprint default, too lazy to find new ones

18. Do you like redheads?
no, they're pasty and gross and they burn

19. Do you know any twins?
my cousins, naomi and hilary, and annie and cole, oh, and the doublemint twins. god i love their outfits

20. Do you have any weird relatives?
my grandmother uses Danimals drinkable yougurt bottles as a vase for my grandfather's shrine.

21. What was the last movie you watched?
Talledega Nights. a feel good family movie.

22. What was the last book you read?
Like Water for Chocolate. Intense sex scene at the end. INTENSE

Lalalalala

2006-08-16T00:27:42Z

I want this on a t-shirt.

lost_without_me @ 2006-07-20T13:47:00

2006-07-20T17:48:42Z

I love:

a fresh pack of colored flashcards still bound in plastic

when you manage to peel the skin of a clementine so that you're left with one unbroken coil

when no one's looking and you smash your face into whatever you're eating and snarf it up

when you find a quarter on the ground

NCS hot chocolate in the morning

getting compliments on something you didn't even realize was pretty

new shoes that don't make your feet hurt

conversations with your dog

rainy sunday mornings where you're the only one home and there's no school on Monday

thinking there's going to be a work-out when you show up for practice, and instead it's a game of Foxes and Hounds

when you know every answer on a quiz

a plain Einstein Bro's bagel

swirled, soft-serve icecream after a movie with friends

the first week of winter break

when you realize that someone misses you (score, you think, i'm important)

a nice angst piece with words like breathtakingly beautiful (just... mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm)

re-discovering old albums

realizing you weren't such an ugly baby

finding an old shirt that's just PERFECT for running in

when I'm dozing off on the car ride home after practice and a Beatles song comes on

when someone that normally doesn't say hi to you does

when you read or watch something that makes you squeal and roll around clutching your heart (ex; Daniel Vosovich)

a hot and soft peanut butter cookie

drinking sprite with a slice of lemon in your mouth

polish water ice on the boardwalk

sand sculptures (even if they are usually always Jesus)

a good inside joke

stretching after a run

running in the snow (haha, he just slipped)

that peaceful feeling you get after swimming

fresh laundry

uncontrollable laughter that gives you a hernia

a good Garfield comic

Oh I could go ON and On and ONONONONONONON

lost_without_me @ 2006-07-19T21:05:00

2006-07-20T00:47:55Z

when i breathe, it tickles. screw anyone who thinks that this is not a masterfully crafted inside look on the angst within me.

Dutch

2006-07-14T17:51:14Z

Because my Microsoft Word isn't working and my handwriting is unintelligable, I feel compelled to make my lists here. A temporary fix for the computer virus that is not so secretly worming its way through the isolated bowels of my decades old computer. Ooooh, creepy image.

Things I Hate (haha, how typical of a hormonal teenager still shaking off mannerisms belonging to a preteen):

1. When a guy feels compelled to pay for things. Movie tickets, food, whatever. I mean, now it feels like I owe you something. What, you want a blowjob in your popcorn bucket? Well, since you paid for it, why not? It's just uncomfortable, and then I have to mutter things like, "you didn't have to do that", while you feel like some sort of modern white knight.

2. When you're napping in the car after school and the radio station happens to be on 99.5 and your dad is driving and you hear, through the layers of sleep, if you don't wanna make love, we can just cuddle up, and if you don't wanna cuddle up, we can just make looooovvveee and you know it's too late to change the station, but you also know that those lyrics will be repeated at least six more times. Cringe...

3. When no one just listens to you when you're angry. They make jokes, change the subject, tell you you're overreacting, well of COURSE i'm overreacting BITCH, I'm ANGRY. Just FUCKING LISTEN! The longer they make you wait to purge all these feelings, the more irrational you (actually I) get.

4. When you're in the middle of a fight with someone on AIM and just when you're about to throw in a really clever comment, your computer shuts the program down. When you finally log back on, the person has signed off too. Now you look like a pussy and no one really buys the whole MY COMPUTER DID IT alibi.

5. When you overhear people talking about someone that MAY be you and MAY NOT be you. Now you can't be completely angry at them, but you still get the full blow of paranoia. Good stuff

6. When you want to strangle someone, but can't

7. When everyone's talking about this party they all went to and they all KNOW you didn't go, so now you have to put on this cool act that involves pretending to read a book, that fake laugh, and avoiding all eye contact. Even worse is when they're all PLANNING a party and you're right there while they're wondering who to put down for the guest list. You can't join in, because they haven't said if you're invited or not, so you keep hearing names, but they never just say to you, oh yeah, of course you're invited, and let you quash all those insecure feelings.

8. Run-on sentences like the one above

9. When it's snowing and you're hoping really really hard that school will be cancelled and you end up waking up five times in the night to check if the snow has covered the roads, then you wake up and every school but yours has been cancelled. Oh yeah, and you also have to run outside with all the white just MOCKING YOU

10. When people fish for compliments by whining about how much they suck at something. They know they don't suck and they know you know they don't suck, therefore they are sure to be showered with "OMG, you SO do not suck, you ROCK".

11. Long lines

12. Asian grandmothers

13. My mother's best friend's daughter, who is popular, confident, wins piano and horse riding competitions, is supposedly a talented writer, goes to Sidwell (my first choice school that put me on the waiting list), and is bored with her life. OH yeah, and she's two years younger than me.

14. Being compared to my three year old cousins who have a bigger Chinese vocabulary than I do. Oh yeah? Well I can fucking speak ENGLISH.

15. The fact that my brother can't even understand his own name in chinese, but my cousins like him better than me

16. The fact that I know my dad thinks I have no chance of getting into a good college. I can see him mentally preparing himself for the rejection letters. Gee... thanks?

17. The fact that I'm wasting time writing this hate list instead of studying for the SATs

18. When infomercials trick you into buying the Magic Bullet and it's just a stupid blender, but smaller and more expensive

19. When you realize that your summer has been reduced to watching the Food Network and having cravings for whatever they're cooking

20. Rants like the one above.

10 Things I Learned While In London

2006-07-05T03:50:16Z

1. Spotted Dick is NOT a penis during a measles epidemic nor slang for genital herpes, but an English dessert made with some sort of bread pudding and raisins. Oh those wacky englishpersons

2. Pudding means dessert. Pudding also means pudding. So hot pudding could either be a hot dessert... or microwaved pudding. Oh those perplexing englishpersons

3. Another few word anomalies. Fries are chips and chips are crisps. Cookies are biscuits, trash is rubbish, trash can is rubbish bin, soccer is football, football is american football, CNN is BBC, sketchy is dodgy, and teasing is taking the piss. Oh those topsy-turvy englishpersons

4. There is no airconditioning, but there ARE windows without mosquito screens. Easy to open, even easier to catch malaria. Oh those environmentally aware englishpersons

5. Due to the collapse of the American dollar, one pound equals two dollars. Automatically, everything you buy costs twice as much. Meaning the 99 pence McNuggets you purchased at McDonalds are not 99 cents. They are 1.98. On the bright side, no tax. Oh those double or nothing englishpersons

6. The Changing of the Guard is nothing more than a highschool football (the American meaning) game halftime featuring a glorified marching band. The posh red uniforms and all that marching in unison do make up for the fact you've been standing for an hour staring at the sweat soaked shirt an inch away from your face, completely blinded by the thirty so people in front of you and uncomfortably close to the 70 something people around you. And of course there are those unsightly grey bars that prevent any fanatics from taking out the tuba player. Oh those "let's take advantage of stupid tourists" englishpersons

7.At first, riding the Tube (subway) may be an adventure. All those people, and passageways, and the "MIND THE GAP" warnings. But after a few days of trying to make sense of the map with all those stupid lines that seem to change colors every time you blink and the fact that the English are always to busy to apologize when they step on your foot, you wonder why the school couldn't shell out a few more pounds for taxis and doubledecker buses. Oh those "because we have narrow streets and refuse to change, NO CARS" englishpersons

8. Doubledecker buses are just regular buses, sitting on the top only means an extra flight of stairs to climb. They are, however, airconditioned. SCORE! Oh those "let's stack a bus on top of another one and paint it red" englishpersons

9. At first a British accent is charming. How very Hugh Grant and Colin Firth. Then you realize you're now speaking in a slightly English way. Soon you start saying rubbish, and dodgy, and crisps. That's all very fine and good, but when even the voice inside your head is english, it's time to leave. Oh those "we abhore a faux accent but we are the reason for them" englishpersons

10. You might think, well, I'm going to Britain, why not fly British Airlines for more authenticity. But when they cancel the flight, take two hours to ship you into the nearest hotel, take off an hour late, have no air conditioning, then go ahead and lose your luggage, it's a good idea to switch back to United, because having to wear the same shirt and the same jeans until you can get to the mall because the majority of your summer outfits were packed into the now MIA suitcase is too big a price to pay for authenticity. Oh those fucking english bastards

Tong Hua

2006-05-18T01:14:02Z

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f4y0E2qSsTI

Sweetest chinese music video EVER... not that I've seen many

ACK, my asian attachments are here and attacking me with a vengeance. I am currently listening to an asian radio system thanks to the internet and watching this weird incestuous Korean soap opera...

Anyways, the music video is for Guang Liang with his wonderful song Tong Hua (fairy tale). Don't worry, it has english subtitles

It basically plays the song three times and has scenes added in... which was weird.

Also has the most AWKWARD make out scene EVER, i thought the reason the girl got a bloody nose was b/c they were bumping into each other so much.

Still... very sweet, and even better if you speak Chinese (which is like no one who will read this).

Love love love him.

I can't believe...

2006-05-14T18:59:54Z

I FUCKING FORGOT MOTHER'S DAY! I knew it was in May... I just didn't think it was THIS week.

How did I realize my gi-normous faux pas? I was reading Lee's journal entry and and I came across the fact. And I freaked. I tried to bring up a new internet explorer window to check the facts, but instead started choking on my spit (don't ask) and clicking on Microsoft Office instead.

So after I clarified the fact that I am an god awful daughter, I grabbed the (overpriced) scented soap I bought for her at Flower Mart, tripped up the stairs and thrust it into her hands (still choking).

She was pleased, so I think I have a chance at escaping Hell.

I can't believe I forgot... I'm horrible

Being Vague is Cool

2006-05-10T01:04:06Z

Today... it happened and then it was over. But i didn't want it to be. It ended so suddenly. It kinda hurt, but it shouldn't have. I'm so weak... but by saying it... does it make me even more so? And when I laugh... do they laugh too? I want them to... but I don't. It makes me want to... I can't say it... it's still too soon. And maybe he did say hi. I wanted him to. So badly. I waited. And I looked for him. But he never... he never...

I can't believe I... I can't...

.........................................................................................................................................

For those who didn't get it, this is a satire.

lost_without_me @ 2006-05-07T18:17:00

2006-05-07T22:05:48Z

Hmmm, revelation. Although Lovely Bones is a book of the month club book and a good morning america READ THIS! selection... I'm going to have to say that it is really boring

Like REALLY REALLY boring.

The only good part was the actual murder/rape. Everything else is just WHY DON'T YOU JUST KILL HIM ALREADY

And they make heaven sound all depressing. Can totally see writer is very con-suicide (then again, who isn't).

GREY'S ANATOMY TONIGHT!!!! My highlight of the week... actually

I go on their website EVERYDAY. No joke. I love the writer's blog. And i am officially a loser.

Eeeeeeeeee

2006-04-22T18:39:28Z

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I GOT MY BRACES OFF!

And yes, I AM rubbing it into the faces of those who still have food storing railroad tracks pasted on their teeth.

It feels really weird. Like I have gummy material smeared all over mes dents.

Unfortunately, the I'm getting my retainer on Monday... so only three days of toothy goodness.

I've already brushed my teeth four times today. There's absolutely not friction so my toothbrush just slides around.

Oh, and I ate a sandwich... AND NOTHING GOT STUCK!!!!!

Oh, the elation, the pure bliss!

I am happy

2006-04-17T23:56:11Z

I'm happy.

No seriously, I am.

I have no reason to be happy seeing as how both my World History and French grade have dropped very very low and I have a Math test tomorrow and a Physics test on Friday. I have a meet, a tutoring session, and a piano lesson and it's only Monday.

And yet... I'm happy. A peaceful happy.

My brother is minding his own business playing online checkers (probably cybersexing some 40-year-old in the process) and my dad is outside mowing the lawn. I only have to study for math and play my piano and then I can read. I am happy.

My mother is somewhere that is not where I am. I am ecstatic.

Granted, this bubble of happiness will undoubtedly pop sooner than I will expect and depression will ooze out like cricket guts. Mmmmmm, looking forward to it. May even gnaw at inner lip until bleeding point in order to releash my angst and anger without any serious repercussions.

Am also sure that if given the chance, I would gladly chew out one of those christian homophobes. Am totally ready for such a task since reading Hate Crime.

Now hate all homophobes and wish to kill through sodomy. Mmmmmm, happy thought.

Yes, I am completely, twistedly happy. Mmmmmmm.

(10-ish minutes later)

My bubble has popped. Actually, while writing this entry. My dad finished mowing earlier than expected and I heard him come down the stairs. I hurriedly closed my screen only to realize that my dad's strides are freakishly large and he saw my quick actions. He said my name LOUDLY, causing my hand, pencil enclosed, to come smashing down due to some weird tremor caused by fright. Heart has not stopped beating. Proceeded to vent anger out towards innocent pencil. Pencil is broken, pencil sharpener is nowhere in sight. Hate father in way that only a teenager can and wish to be pregnant and wasted in oder to spite him. Also wish to bomb math test for same reason.

Hate overachieving asian parents, wish to be born half asian, half caucasion. Fate is cruel. Stupid fragile bubbles...

Bright and Cheery

2006-04-15T21:54:34Z

Finally got my layout to work. Kinda wimpy... i mean butterflies? But it was the only one that worked.

So... about my day...

My allergies were killing me so I woke up three hours earlier than I usually do with my eyes glued shut. Peeling them open hurt so much I couldn't fall back asleep so I read chick lit and rubbed my eyes.

Then I had to have a "family" lunch with my "family" at this dim sum place filled with old asian people and young white kids. It was dirty, they wouldn't refill our glasses and my mother refused to eat any of the food. I accidentally catapulted my chopsticks and had to eat with a fork (oh the humanity, an asian using a three-pronged instrument). After eating four times the amount I usually eat, I wasn't even close to full. On the way out, I tripped and almost slammed into a shrunken grandma.

On the way back, my mother spent half the trip slamming and bashing the restaurant, then moved on to the Old Country Buffet, my childhood love. I then realized that my childhood had not slowly disappeared, it had been snatched away by my overcritical mother. And even worse, she's passed in on to me so now I can't have children. Not that I want any, but what IF?????

Then I pretended to work to get out of shopping with my mother (where she critisizes me with her eyes and her sighs. totally emo poem). I ate Toffee and Almond Dibs and Raspberry Sorbet out of the carton while watching Yo Mama and Wild n' Out. I laughed at only 1/3 of the jokes (stupid people aren't very funny... especially if they recycle their material).

My mother returned home and made me strip and try on all the clothes she purchased for me (after scolding me about how never to wear an outfit more than once a month). Now she's gone to buy more clothes and my dad and brother are out playing tennis.

I'm on the phone talking about Jeopordy with my friends from my old school (three-way convo!) and sipping sprite. I wish all the flowers would die so my eyes would stop itching. DIE YOU POLLEN BREEDING FIENDS< DIE!!!!!